Un-decided on what to do.

Hi I want to thank all of you for everything, and all the kind words, I am happy too have met all of you. Today it is with heavy heart that I am thinking of closing my blog page. I am sorry I enjoy blogging but there has been alot of things in my life that have been turned upside down over the past few months. I just want to say I think your all great, so I will think about it for a couple days and then decide. Thank you all of you for being friends...

Heart Award

I have received this award from Lynn. Thank you so very much for this award it is the second time I have received it. I felt compelled to post it again...



This means a lot to me thanks again... I would like to share it with the following friends,Nancy, Our Journey To Forever,Nance, and Sweet Lullaby

Baby ill wait for you

To the prettiest woman I know I hope you remember this its how I feel for you.

Elliott YaminWait For You

Music Videos And Lyrics On Demand

[Verse 1]

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.


I hope you are taking care of yourself. I always enjoy the time we can share....

Don't Stop The Music - by Rihanna

To a wonderful woman who means the world to me, this song makes me think of us dancing together. Hope it makes you feel the same..



Please don't stop the music (music, music, music)
Please don't stop the music (music, music, music)
Please don't stop the music (music, music, music)
Please don't stop the music (music, music, music)

[Verse 1:]
It's getting late
I'm making my way over to my favourite place
I gotta get my body moving, shake the stress away
I wasn't looking for nobody when you looked my way
Possible candidate, yeah
Who knew, that you'd be up here lookin' like you do
You're making staying over here impossible
Baby I must say, your aura is incredible
If you don't have to go (don't)

[Bridge:]
Do you know what you've started?
I just came here to party
But now we're rocking on the dancefloor, acting naughty
Your hands around my waist
Just let the music play
We're hand in hand
Chest to chest and now we're face to face

[Chorus:]
I wanna take you away
Let's escape into the music DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do this
Keep on rockin to it
Please don't stop the, please don't stop the music
I wanna take you away
Let's escape into the music DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do this
Keep on rockin to it
Please don't stop the, please don't stop the, please don't stop the music

[Verse 2:]
Baby are you ready cause it's getting close
Don't you feel the passion ready to explode
What goes on between us no one has to know
This is a private show, oh

[Bridge:]
Do you know what you've started?
I just came here to party
But now we're rockin on the dancefloor, acting naughty
Your hands around my waist
Just let the music play
We're hand in hand
Chest to chest and now we're face to face

[Chorus:]
I wanna take you away
Let's escape into the music DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do this
Keep on rockin to it
Please don't stop the, please don't stop the music
I wanna take you away
Let's escape into the music DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do this
Keep on rockin to it
Please don't stop the, please don't stop the, please don't stop the music

Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Please don't stop the music
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Please don't stop the music (music, music, music)
Please don't stop the music (music, music, music)

[Chorus:]
I wanna take you away
Let's escape into the music DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do this
Keep on rockin to it
Please don't stop the, please don't stop the music
I wanna take you away
Let's escape into the music DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do this
Keep on rockin to it
Please don't stop the, please don't stop the, please don't stop the music

Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Please don't stop the music (music, music, music)
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Please don't stop the music (music, music, music)
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Mamma say, mamma saw, mamaco saw
Please don't stop the music (music, music, music)

So-Hearty-Cloudy

Wow what to say for once I am lost for words. I would like to thank Nancy for sharing this with me it is a privilege to be a friend of yours.



If I may I would like to say to that someone special out there told you my heart was in the clouds when I think of you which is always….

I wanna pass this to my constant visitors janethvicy, texas sweetie, michelle, Wildcatlady29, Mommy situlas, Tintin,and Princess . Thank you all for your thoughts and time.

T:How ya doing young lady
The feeling that you gave me really drives me crazy
You dont have a play about the joke
I was at a loss of words
First time that we spoke

N:If your looking for a girl that’ll treat you right
If you looking for her in the day time in the light
T:You might be the type if I play my cards right
I'll find out by the end of the night

N: You expect me to just let you hit it
But will you still respect me if you get it?

T:All I can do is try, give me one chance
What’s the problem? I don’t see no ring on your hand

I'll be the first to admit it, I’m curious about you, you seem so innocent

N: You wanna get in my world, get lost in it
Boy I’m tired of running, lets walk for a minute

Chorus-
T:Promiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want

N: Promiscuous boy
You already know
That I’m all yours
What you waiting for?

T:Promiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need

N: Promiscuous boy
Let's get to the point
Cause we're on a roll
You ready?

Verse-
N: Roses are red
Some diamonds are blue
Chivalry is dead
But you're still kinda cute

T:Hey! I can't keep my mind off you
where u at, do you mind if I come to

N: I’m out of this world come with me to my planet
B*tch ima level do you think that you can handle it?

T:They call me Thomas
last name Crown
Recognize game
I'm a lay mine's down

N: I'm a big girl I can handle myself
But if I get lonely I may need your help
Pay attention to me I don't talk for my health
T:I want you on my team
N: So does everybody else.

T:Baby we can keep it on the low
Let your guard down ain’t nobody gotta know
[Promiscuous lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

If you with it girl I know a place we can go

N: What kind of girl do you take me for?

Chorus-
T:Promiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want

N: Promiscuous boy
You already know
That I’m all yours
What you waiting for?

T:Promiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need

N: Promiscuous boy
Let's get to the point
Cause we're on a roll
You ready?

Verse-
T: (beat) frica Don't be mad, don't get mean
N: (beat) frica Don't get mad, don't be mean

T: Hey! Don't be mad, don't get mean
N: (beat) frica Don't get mad, don't be mean

T:Wait! I don't mean no harm
I can see you with my t-shirt on

N:I can see you with nothing on
feeling on me before you bring that on

T: Bring that on?
N: You know what I mean

T:Girl, I’m a freak you shouldn't say those things

N:I’m trying to get inside of your brain
To see if you can work me the way you say

T:It's okay, it's alright
I got something that you gonna like

N:Hey is that the truth or are you talking trash
Is your game M.V.P. like Steve Nash

Chorus-
T: Promiscuous Girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want

N: Promiscuous Boy
I'm calling your name
But you're driving me crazy
The way you're making me wait

T: Promiscuous Girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need

N: Promiscuous Boy
We're one and the same
So we don't gotta play games no more

I Loved Her First..

Look at the two of you dancing that way Lost in the moment and each others face So much in love your alone in this place Like there's nobody else in the world I was enough for her not long ago I was her number one She told me so And she still means the world to me Just so you know So be careful when you hold my girl Time changes everything Life must go on And I'm not gonna stand in your way But I loved her first and I held her first And a place in my heart will always be hers From the first breath she breathed When she first smiled at me I knew the love of a father runs deep And I prayed that she'd find you someday But it still hard to give her away I loved her first How could that beautiful women with you Be the same freckle face kid that I knew The one that I read all those fairy tales toAnd tucked into bed all those nights And I knew the first time I saw you with her It was only a matter of time But I loved her first and I held her first And a place in my heart will always be hers From the first breath she breathed When she first smiled at me I knew the love of a father runs deep And I prayed that she'd find you someday But its still hard to give her away I loved her first From the first breath she breathed When she first smiled at me I knew the love of a father runs deep Someday you might know what I'm going through When a miracle smiles up at you I loved her first

To Someone Very Special..

Hi you know who you are. I love you so much and I hope and pray the feelings is mutual. I hope and pray in time that it will work out someway, somehow. I don't know exactly what happened but I know you have been placed between a rock and a hard spot. I really hope eveything works out. I am always thinking of you and I always worry about you. You do mean the world to me. I hope you never forget it. I have been sad and I know you had been too. I really do care and only hope things could work out some way, some day... Only expressing my feelings .

LOVE: NEAR - V - FAR

Can someone please tell me why love has to be so difficult when it is supposed to be something so special?
If you love somebody and they love you shouldn't that be all that matters. I mean for example if you go to the grocery store, and you run in to the most beautiful person and the feeling seems mutual then you just start dating hmmm sounds so easy huh.
Ok If you chat to somebody on line, and they live down the street wow once again so easy you go out right.
Well then why can’t it be just as easy for two people that live a couple thousand miles a part hmmm now its not so easy is it. You have so many more things to consider like how will it affect everyone else as well as the two of you?
So many more people have to be involved in such a personal relationship. I am just saying how different it is to be able to easily care about someone across the street, and then how hard it is to care about somebody across the world.

How many others think about such things?

Friendly Site Award

A cute Award
Thanks Justine, Wildcatlady29 and janethvicy for this award your so kind :-)

I would like to pass this award to Nancy, ambiruar, Princess, Gen, and retchel..

Thank you to wildcatlady29..

*Start Copy Here*

1. You do not have to be tagged to play along. This game is simple and so are the rules. Copy from *Start Copy Here* through *End Copy Here*

2. Add your site(s) to the list. Just be sure to post at each site you add.

3. Tag or don’t tag, your choice, however, the more tags you create the bigger the list will grow.

4. Let me know your blog’s name and URL by leaving me a comment HERE.I will add you to the master list. (If you would like the scroll box code, leave me your email address and I will email it to you.)

5. Come back and copy the master list back to your site, often. This process will allow late-comers to get as much link benefit as the first ones in.

1- Attitude, the Ultimate Power 2- Juliana's Site 3- Rusin Roundup 4- Grow Rich Along With Me 5- Comedy Plus6- lynda's loft 7- Amel's Realm 8- Max9- Speedcat Hollydale 10- Mariuca 11- Complain Complain Complain 12- Mariuca's Perfume Gallery 13- Life Is A Roller Coaster 14- Sugar Queen's Dream 15- First Time Dad 16- Life 17- My Life 18- The Painted Veil19- My Thoughts 20- DatCurious.com 21- little Aussie Cynic 22- A Nice Place in the Sun 23- DatMoney.com 24- The Callalilly Space 25- Ratings of a Woman 26- My Life My World 27- Mommy's Gibble Gabbles 28-Sweet Paradise 29- Pinaymama's Diary 30- Mother's JournalA 31- Asawa's Love Nest 32- Field of Dreams 33-JK.


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I would like to tag.. Angelgi, Tintin, Justine, pinaymommy, and Utah Mommy stoutds..

Compliments Day

Thank you to Joy and michelle for this..

A real friends must be cherished beyond all worldly measures and shine brighter than gold and last longer than diamonds.

A compliments day meme from my sweet and nice friend Michelle.Thanks friend for sharing this complimentary smilies with me. So glad that we became friends as well. I wanna share it to the rest of my other friends who always welcome me as one of their cyber friends, namely, Angel, Aparna, Tintin, and Earvin.

Is life truly what we make of it?

You know I wonder why life has to be like it is. There are so many ups and downs in life. I hear all the time "life is what you make it", sometimes that maybe somewhat correct. But there are times in life where it just isn't so. I mean if life were what you make it, and then wouldn't people always be happy? I mean think about it, if you could choose how you feel 24 hours a day then wouldn't you choose to be happy, gee I know I would. Wouldn't you choose the best job, house, and car among other things? I mean if life were truly what we make it then don't you think everyone would have the best of every thing? We can only do so much with what we have then hope and pray it is enough to do what we want. I honestly feel that there is only so much we can do to make our lives what we want. There are too many variables in play to completely dictate our entire lives. I would like to see how some of my blogger friends feel about this whether you agree or disagree. Would like to here how others feel on the subject.

I got this tag from MJ, Thank you for tagging me :)

And here's the contract!

After serious and cautious consideration...your contract of friendship has been renewed for the New Year 2008! It was a very hard decision to make. So try not to screw it up!!!My Wish for You in 2008May peace break into your house and may thieves come to steal your debts. May the pockets of your jeans become a magnet of $100 bills. May love stick to your face like Vaseline and may laughter assault your lips! May your clothes smell of success like smoking tires! May happiness slap you across the face and may your tears be that of joy. May the problems you had forget your home address! In simple words ...May 2008 be the best year of your life!

I would like to pass this 2008 Contract to China, Angel, Aparna, ninah, and cikgudenan

A Great Award

I would like to thank Princess and Jenny and Wildcatlady29 and Resebel for this 2 wonderful awards. I am only trying to do the best I can. They're all fellow bloggers that make my site what it is.

13 Extra Challenge For This Year

I got a tag from Pinay Mommy:." So here it goes...

Champion a child - target: my 2 kids
Encourage a co-worker - target: my 3 friends at work - Frank, Eric, and Bob.
Read a a great book - target: Do Tech jurnals count?
Do something that frightens you - target: Fall in love again.
Write a thank you note - target: To those who have helped me with my blogging skills.
Do something kind for a stranger - target: Anyone in need of help.
Wow a customer - target: Treat them like family.
Learn something new - target: Make my blog the best I can.
Let go of a resentment - target: look at what I have done wrong and fix it.
Do better work - target: strive to every day.
Be more passionate - target: Hard one to do, because of circumstances beyond my control.
Speak truthfully - target: I am alway honest and truthful, even when others dont like it.
Stand for excellence - target: Try to be the best I can be and then some.

I like to pass this to Angel, Tintin, michelle and resebel.

Three Awards in a Row...

I want to thank Justine for these awards. I am only trying to be myself and enjoy the company of other bloggers :

I would like to share this awards to: Michelle, Pinaymommy, Princess and Nancy

What Age Do You Act?

You Act Like You're 27 Years Old

You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel like an adult, and you're optimistic about life.You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. You're still figuring out your place in the world and how you want your life to shape up. The world is full of possibilities, and you can't wait to explore many of them.

And I am tagging some friends for this, namely China, Janethvicy, Michelle and Joy. Hope you enjoy this guys!!

Wonderful Blogging Community

I just feel like saying thank you to the blogging community for the warm welcome to me as a new comer to the blogosphere. It is so nice to get around and see so many wonderful blogs. I hope I can keep bloggers interested in my page. I am just simply going to be myself and blog it as it comes to me. I really feel that it is nice to see so many different cultures and learn so many new things. I also enjoy meeting new people from everywhere. I am happy to have become part of this magnificent community. Take care everyone and happy blogging.

My Name

Thanks a whole lot 21 Jan 08, 23:06 Our Journey To Forever: or tagging me. I find this tag pretty interesting and c00L!

All you have to do is spell your name using the letters and their corresponding meanings. Amazing!... Here is the meaning of my name...

J: Makes people laugh
A: Gorgeous
M: Makes dating fun
E: deeply in love with his/her gf/bf
S: Lives life for fun
________________________
Name Meaning Here:
A: Gorgeous
B: Loves people
C: Really easy to fall in love with
D: Is great in bed
E: deeply in love with his/her gf/bf
F: People wild and crazy adore you
G: Never let people tell you what to do
H: Freakin’ beautiful eyes
I: Loves to laugh
J: Makes people laugh
K: Really silly
L: BEST SMILE
M: Makes dating fun
N: Sexy
O: Has one of the best personalities ever
P: Popular with all types of people
Q: A hypocrite
R: Good bf/gf
S: Lives life for fun
T: Great kisser
U: Gets blamed for everything
V: Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded
X: Never let people tell you what to do
Y: Loved by everyone
Z: Lives life for fun
It's your turn now jenny,rocantronik , Utah Mommy stoutds, and Juliana.

20 Personal Qs Tag

Tag from Nancy..thank you Nancy
1. What did you do in 2007 that you’d never done before? Became a single parent.
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I actually don't have any...Not sure..
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? No.
4. Did anyone close to you die? Yes my Wife September 14, 2007 she was ill for several years.
5. What countries did you visit? there's none.
6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007? A happy and quiet year.
7. What was your biggest achievement of the year 2007? Being the best dad i can.
8. What was your biggest failure? Not being able to do enough to save my wife.
9. Did you suffer illness or injury? Yes a broken heart.
10. What was the best thing you bought? Christmas gifts for the kids.
11. Where did most of your money go? Bills.
12. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Meeting someone that has helped me through a very rough time and looking forward to meeting in person some time soon hopfully.
13. Compared to this time last year, are you:a) happier or sadder? happier b) thinner or fatter? same size lol c) richer or poorer? richer...(not financially, tho..)
14. What do you wish you’d done more of? show some lovin' to those I dearly cared about.
15. What do you wish you’d done less of? ;) going through life to fast.
16. What was the best book you read? didn't lol
17. What did you want and get? a true friend.
18. What did you want and not get? a million dollars.
19. What kept you sane? nice thoughts!, and friends.
20. Who did you miss? mainly two very special people.

This time, I wanna hear from Wildcatlady29, CC's Lifestyle and Reviews and bingdabomb...take it away guys!

I got this tag from Wildcatlady29 and I wanna thank her for passing it to me thanks Wildcatlady29 :).

Cut and paste the following starting here.

I have randomly selected 5 of you below to be tagged and I hope that you will similarly publish this post in your blog.

You will have to tag 5 other bloggers and just keep adding on to the list. (Do not replace, just keep on adding! Do not replace, just keep on adding! Yes we hope it will be a long list!) It’s real easy!Tag others and see your Technorati Authority increase exponentially!The benefits of Viral:

- One of the fastest ways to see your technorati authority explode!- Increase your Google PageRank fast- Attract large volume of new traffic to your site- Build your community- Make new friends!

The Strategist Notebook .
Link Addiction.
Ardor of the Heart.
When Life Becomes a Book.
The Malaysian Life.
Yogatta Dot Com.
What Goes Under the Sun.
Rashidan's Cyber Station Sha says.
Art of Physics.
And the legend Lives .
My View My Life.
A Simple Life.
Juliana's Site.
The Callalily Space.
Clumsy Mommy Starz in Sky.
Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow Choc Mint Girl Summer in Blue.
Denz Techtronics Blog.
Denz Recreational Blog .
Denz Blog.
Pinay WAHM.
Teacher Corner.
Roselle's Blog.
Roselle's Blog.
Life in the Blogger Lane Tikya sa Tate' .
MyOnlineBiz Gags, Chuckles and Giggles.
Pinaysmile's Journey.
GARDEN of MOMENTS.
Asawa's Love Nest.
A Mother's Journal.
Field of Dreams.
Wildcatlady29.
JK .

I wanna tag: Nancy - just the way it is, Nancy- peaceful mind, Ger, Zhoe wynz, and utah Mommy stoutds.

Dont forget the important part to insert the following link above then insert ur own blog link in the last.

TAG ABOUT BLOGGING.

Tag about blogging

I got this Tag from Wildcatlady29, and I thank her for passing it to me :) Thanks Wildcatlady29!


1. How long have you been blogging? - I started blogging January 2008 a couple days ago.


2. What inspired you to write a blog, and who are your mentors? - A friend of mine (Nancy) introduced me to her blogs. While we were discussing her blogs she told me she felt I would do a great blog. I asked her to show me how and help me get it started. Nancy setup the layout as I wanted, and she helped me understand what I needed to do. So it just took off from there.

3. What are the 3 things that you love about being online? - Discovering blogging. - Meeting new people and learning about them - Knowing when I need a friend I can find one of mine on line.


4. What are the three things that you struggle with in the online-world? - Spelling I always need to check it lol. – Too many people trying to chat to me at one time. - When friends drop out in the middle of a conversation, and you start to worry you may have offended them somehow, and it turns out their server just went out..


I wanna Tag this to Nancy, Tipsytips, Lynn, Utah Mommy situlas, Gre, jenny, and yeoh.

A Thank You to a good friend.....

I would like to thank Nancy from:

http://onlinememorylane.blogspot.com/ ,
http://realpixgalore.blogspot.com/ , and
http://www.letmusicrules.blogspot.com/

She did a wonderful job with the layout of my blog page.
Thanks a million Nancy.

My son and I enjoyed a ride in the snow.

I love the snow it is just like a big white blanket

when it is on the ground. I could however live

with out the cold that comes with it. Posted for everyone

who doesn't get snow.

Just a few of life’s riddles...

Why is it when we care about someone, and want the best for them we end up doing the worst we can for them?

If we try to help fix a mess we make more of a mess out of it, or if we leave it alone then we still manage to make a mess out of it why is that?

Sometimes you don’t even know when you have made a mess of it, just happens without your knowledge, and when you do find out it’s to late to even try to correct it why is that?

When you try to bring happiness to someone you ultimately bring more pain to them why is that?

You try to put a smile on someone’s face but you make them cry instead why?

When you show love to someone it can be as bad as it is good why is that?

When you try to bring life back to someone, and instead you end up with death why is that?


If you think you may have some insights please feel free to comment ........

This is where I go for peace of mind....

This is a place of true tranquility.

I enjoy spending my time here it is so peaceful.

I am What I am!

WELCOME!

The world is but a canvas to the imagination.”
- Henry David Thoreau -